I'm in Massachusetts right now, poking around the south shore, presently at the Hingham Public Library (free wi-fi!). I flew here because my sweet Doc is interested in a one-year job here next year, and wanted me to decide if it would be something I could get on board with.
As I drove around the area yesterday, I talked to Heavenly Father out loud in the car, telling Him that if this is where we should be for a year, I wanted “unmistakable personal revelation” on the matter.
I know sometimes life is just a matter of choosing between two good options, and that this may be one of those times. But I figure God has GOT to have a best case scenario for us, and I just want to do whatever that is. I also told him that if we do end up here, I wouldn't mind at all if we had a nice place to live. I know it's not vital, but if it's all the same to Him, that would be my preference.
Since I’m just coming out of a season of being withered for so long, and am finally starting to flower a bit (though I can’t say as I’ve necessarily "borne fruit" yet), I don’t know if the move would make me wilt or be a really good thing for me personally, and especially for my family. That's why I needed to know for sure.
I admit I feared I wouldn’t get what I came seeking. That I’ll be left making a decision without knowing definitively what the optimal choice would be. Sometimes in my life when I've felt completely sure about my course, it hasn't panned out that way, which leaves me wondering if I misunderstood, or if I just thought I was on the right path. Asking for and finding answers to big questions isn't something I'm very good at...but I'm trying.
So I drove around the area. Went by the hospital Doc would work at, and then started checking out the towns nearby. I decided to swing by the LDS church we'd attend if we moved here...since I plan to attend services there tomorrow morning.
I got to the parking lot and there were several cars there, with the door propped open. Turns out there were a bunch of people setting up for their annual Christmas Breakfast and talent show. I met a few lovely people, and ended up helping them set up the Christmas tree. They of course invited me to the breakfast today, and by the time I arrived, word had spread about me.
As I ate fruit and pancakes, person after person came up to meet me and introduce themselves. Five darling teenage girls approached in a group, having already been told I have a daughter their age. "We want you guys to come here. Your daughter would love it and we'd love her" they told me.
The talent show began and included a wide variety of acts from teenage boys performing Guitar Hero Rock Band (complete with vocals), to a 9 year old Elvis in his signature white outfit & wig singing Blue Christmas (which, naturally I was impressed with!), to a 7 year old rendition of "All I want for Christmas is my THREE front teeth" (yes, three. Very cute!) and suddenly without warning, my heart was filled up to overwhelming as I was touched by the spirit. It reminded me of how I felt when I got my answer about whether or not I should marry Doc. Just a happy, warm feeling.
To top it off, a housing option may even have even landed in my lap. A family in the congregation is moving out of the country right for a year when we'd need a place, and they need to find renters for their cute home for exactly the time-frame we'd be here. It may not be that we end up there (it's a WAY cute home! Nicer than any I've ever lived in.), but between all the things I've experienced today, I'm not worried about the house thing. Things always just work out how they're supposed to; we'll be where we should be no matter what.
So. Asking for divine help and getting it. Seeking answers and finding them. Maybe I'm getting better at this after all.
Grateful for:
1) Nice people everywhere
2) Got an invite to a Christmas party with some of the women from church tonight. Fun!
3) The day couldn't be more glorious. Bright sun. Blue sky. Clear air. The ocean. Gorgeous trees. Amazing rocks. I fell in love a little bit today.
♥
16 comments:
So many people will miss hoping to see you around, but this sounds so lovely, that I know we will all hope it works out for you.
You are loved, you know.
How fun that those girls immediately said they'd love your daughter! What a fantastic morning for you!
So glad you felt happy and warm here in New England! :) South shore is EXACTLY where we want to move in a 1 1/2!! We want to move to Duxbury. Is Duxbury in that ward? You'll have to let me know all about it!
That is So great! I really needed this post today! Love you!
What I find funny, is that if Doc gets this residency, I'll probably end up seeing you more than I do now!
Excited for our flight next month...please don't drop it!
Oh Blue.
So happy for you and your sweet experience.
And happy for us if we are a few hours apart.
I ♥ answers to prayers. They rock.
xxx
What a heartwarming and beautiful experience!
I love it when things fall into place just as they should.
xoxoxo
Uggg east coast time zone. Oh well, I'll always be your ever-ready copilot guiding you home from wherever you land late at night as the sun is setting on me here. :)
I'm so glad you got to experience that tender mercy. Sounds like your weekend was a success. Come what may.
How cool was that ?? Sounds like a great experience- it will be such an adventure where ever you go!
you are so brave to go join up with a random group of strangers! i would have skulked in my car like a creeper.
best of luck :-D
Wow what a story! Maybe I should try praying out loud in my car.
I love your faith. You are an inspiration in so many ways.
And it's a good thing this temporary;)
oooh! after christmas deals! i didn't even think of that! i usually think of the after-holiday sale in terms of tvs and sweaters that you think are a good idea when it's 5 am. but when you try them on at home 8 hours later you look like a sheep dog.
good idea!
That is SO wonderful! What a great experience and quite possibly a blessing for the family that would be away for a year. The ward would be lucky to have you and we'd love having you within driving distance.
Hello Blue girl ... you are just such a bright star - any community would be blessed to have you :)
As to wilting or blooming - you are blooming great and I feel you have strengths you are just starting to tap into and 2010 will be THE YEAR - hugs and all le xo
Nice! Hope its all working out.
you know I"d be thrilled for you, especially after the sweet confirming feelings you described (I've had experiences like that, I'm happy you now have too) but I hope I can see you a few times before you go. I drove past your house the other day and saw your van in the drive way and nearly flipped a U-turn just to see if you were home...lets visit soon!
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