I've had three people contact me about the Death Star cake pictured in my previous post. I honestly don't have any advice about how to go about it...I just wing it when I make cakes, but I'm happy to share the process I went through.
This was four layers...enough to make two whole cakes. When cooled, I frosted them and stacked them up on top of each other and put it in the refrigerator to firm up. Once chilled, I started cutting it into a sphere shape. When that was done, I put it in the refrigerator to chill some more, while making homemade fondant. It was my 2nd time making fondant...which is ridiculously overpriced and disgusting if you purchase the stuff, but really easy and pretty tasty if you make your own out of marshmallows. I tinted mine dark.
Once the fondant was made, I covered the sphere, used a ball (about the size of a billiards ball) to make the indentation, and then sprayed it with edible silver paint. Then I used a paint brush and edible black paint for the decor. I drew lines all around it, and painted them in. Added a green candy for the laser-thingy, and it was done.
Here are some snapshots of the process, including one with Gator and his cake, and the cake half-eaten. Hope this helps some of you with your Birthday Jedi needs!
(You may be interested in my all-time most popular blog post about hosting a
Star Wars Birthday Party. I get about 50 visits a day to this post.)
Saturday, October 27, 2012
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
Fall Post
It is a sad reality that my blog has become a mostly obsolete thing. Most of the people who I know read my blog are also on Facebook, so they see the photos and the this-N-thats of my daily life. Seems a bit redundant to share the same stuff here. Not that Facebook is anything like what a blog can be, but over time it's become my primary source of online interaction.
Part of this is because something transpired almost five months ago that left my heart kind of shell-shocked. Since then, I haven't really had many other thoughts I could write about. I'm not depressed, just kind of numb, like I'm sort of unable to feel things properly. I'm sure it'll pass someday, but for now, I haven't felt much like sharing what's on my mind. Perhaps someday I will.
Meanwhile, life goes on. Thankfully! Despite my brokey little heart, I've enjoyed doing some fun things. In June, the kids and I spent a wonderful week in NYC and another great week in Vermont. In July I took Bunch on a trip to Hawaii. I'd been planning to take Gator, too, but one day a couple weeks before we were planning to leave, he informed me that he didn't want to go on any more trips that summer. After checking his DNA to verify that he was, indeed, my child, I acquiesced and allowed him to stay home. My worries that he'd change his mind and wish he'd come after we were already gone never transpired, and he enjoyed being a homebody whilst Bunch and I enjoyed visiting the North Shore of Oahu and my sister's family. Those are comparable, no?!
In August, Gator had his 13th birthday, and I made him a fantastic death Star cake. Every year I think "how am I going to top this next year?" and every year I seem to do okay, coming up with something he loves even more than the previous year… But this seriously might be the end of it, because this cake was seriously so awesome.It wasn't too sad to say goodbye to my sister in Hawaii, because there was a good chance I was going to see her again this month...and I did!
Her husband is from French Polynesia. Every few years they make the trek back to visit his family in Tahiti and Moorea, and had invited me to join them any time they were there. So it was just fortunate that it all worked out perfectly, and I was able to spend five days with them this month.
Tahiti and Moorea are surreal!
The first morning after arriving, my sister and I went out on a standup paddleboard and a canoe with her two kids. We were staying at his parent's home, and the ocean is in their back yard. I had my five year old nephew on my canoe, and she had her daughter on the SUP. We were enjoying the water and the morning when we suddenly saw whale spouts nearby. It was the most incredible thing! A momma humpback and at least one calf (seemed like there must have been two...but if not, that kid got around!) were hanging out in the ocean out behind the house, and we spent a couple hours with them. It was so magical! I was super bummed that we didn't have a camera to capture them jumping into the air, looking at us with their big, beautiful eyes, displaying fins and tails, spouting off. It was otherworldly. There were people on boats nearby taking pictures. I was definitely jealous.
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| Photo of me and my nephew and one of our whale friends from the Tahitian newspaper |
Then this week something amazing happened: someone on the boat was connected to the local Tahitian newspaper and did an article about whale watching excursions, and they printed a photo with the story of...you guessed it...ME!
My brother-in-law's family saw it and recognized the paddle board and canoe, and sent us the picture. I couldn't believe that my wish for a photo was granted in such an unexpected way!
All in all it was an incredible trip. Too many memories to share, but I'll leave you with just a few more photos of this amazing speck of paradise in the vast Pacific Ocean:
| Over water bungalows. Quintessential Moorea |
| My sister and her two adorable kids |
| View from the house of the ocean out back. My nephew is dancing on the sand. You can see a whale spouting ... |
| Scene from Moorea |
| The beach outside the house |
| The lunch truck my sisters' sister-in-law owns |
| Another perfect day comes to an end in Tahiti |
| View from the flight home of an atoll |
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Thursday, September 13, 2012
First Flight
First Flight
“Can we puhleeeeeeeeese stop and watch the planes take off?!”
For a few years as a young child, we passed the John Wayne Airport while driving to and from church. Week after week I'd plead with my parents to stop so we could watch the planes. I was mesmerized by all of it: the roar of the engines, shimmery mirage-effect the jet exhaust made in the air, and the miracle of these massive machines taking flight.
I don’t understand why my parents ever indulged me. Perhaps because it was something to do that didn’t cost anything, or just to get me to stop pestering them. Maybe because they concluded it was a suitable activity for the sabbath…because one day they obliged, but rather than satisfy me, it just whetted my appetite for more. I was hooked.
Despite all this, it never occurred to me that I would ever go on a plane myself, because I had this notion that only rich and famous people got to fly…something we decidedly were not.
So I honestly have no idea how this all came about, but the summer I was eight years old, my parents asked if I would like to fly to Idaho and spend the summer with some former neighbors of ours. The Morgans had moved there two years earlier and had agreed to have me come stay them. For two months.
“Of course I want to go!”
Now lets pause for a moment here. I can’t fathom why anyone thought this was a good idea. I had never been away from home before, wasn’t a particularly mature child, and I hadn’t seen or talked to these people in two years--a quarter of my life. They were retired, their children were grown, and they lived on a small farm in a small town in the middle of nowhere.
But they had me at fly on a plane. I didn’t actually think the trip through beyond the flight itself.
The big day arrived and was it was fantastic! Everything my eight-year old mind had imagined it would be. I got a new outfit for the occasion (a rare occurrence), and was treated to a special breakfast. It was a big deal for someone in our family to be going on a trip of any kind, but this was especially significant. After snapping a quick picture of me on the sidewalk in front of our house in my new duds with my favorite stuffed animals, all seven of us loaded into the car and drove to the airport.
Going in to the tiny shoebox of a terminal (as it was in 1977), we handed over my suitcase and they gave me my ticket. Fairly jumping out of my skin with excitement, I said good-bye to my family. And then for the first time, I got to venture past the chain link fence onto the tarmac. Walking to the aircraft stairs, I paused to look back up at my family who were on the second-floor observation deck waving goodbye.
My ride was a sweet, solid yellow Hughes Airwest Boeing 727. I'd dubbed them “Flying Banana” jets and they were my favorite planes at the time. It was a thing of beauty. I considered myself super lucky because the stewardess directed me to the place of honor on the front row! Wearing my new sweater, and with beloved teddy bear in hand, off we went into the wild blue yonder, leaving all my troubles behind. That first lift off was a complete life-rush. What a feeling!
During the flight the stewardesses were kind and attentive to me. I was amazed that they just gave you stuff, like food, for free. Food was always a tricky issue in my childhood; it was kind of hard-scrabble a lot, so someone making me a meal always made me feel cared for. I adored the tiny lavatory--I'd always loved small spaces...like the forts I regularly built out of boxes, in cupboards, closets, or in the shed out back. Everything about the plane just seemed so cool. I stared out the window at the top-side of clouds, and was amazed at the patterns on the land below. It looked like a beautiful, cozy, patchwork quilt was wrapped around the earth. I fell in love with the view.
You know how time seems slow down to a crawl when you’re a kid? Well I discovered that that phenomenon doesn’t hold true on planes, because all too soon the fun was over. Toward the end of the flight I thought up one of the two complete lies I made up as a kid. I was otherwise a very honest child, but decided I could use a whopper of a story to tell my friend, who had visited Vegas many times before. ("We had to switch planes in Las Vegas on the way, and because there was so much time before we took off again, the flight attendants and pilots took me over to Circus Circus to see the show, and I got picked from the audience to feed the elephant peanuts.") Had no idea Circus Circus was a hotel. #busted
We landed and I told my nice stewardesses and pilots goodbye. Mrs. Morgan was waiting for me in the terminal and helped me claim my baggage before heading out to her car. I was just getting seated when I suddenly realized that I’d left my new sweater on the plane. Security being slightly different back then, I raced at top eight-year-old speed straight back out to my favorite Hughes Airwest Boeing 727 Flying Bannana, where the stewardess handed me my sweater and sent me on my way again.
We got to the farm and put my little suitcase in the attic room that I would be sleeping in with the 1970's bead curtain door. Mr. Morgan was a character. His name was simply the letter “K”…and was one of the few adults I wasn’t required to address in more formal terms. They showed me around the house and then sat me down for a talk.
“When we lived near you, we noticed that you were a pretty hyper kid.” K said. “We think it’s because you eat too much sugar, so we’ve decided that during your visit, we’re going to put you on a no-sugar diet.”
Huh?! No sugar? No treats at all? But Mrs. Morgan explained that she would make me special carob treats to eat when everyone else was having chocolate, for example. I had no idea what carob was, but when she showed me it looked like chocolate, and sounded something like caramel, so I thought it might not be too bad. I had no idea.
When they sent me outside to play, I ventured into the heat and started poking around their property. There were a few chickens, and I made a game of hunting for their eggs…Easter in July! It was scorching hot...a kind of heat I was totally unaccustomed to. So hot that I decided to see if I could actually cook the eggs on pieces of scrap metal lying on the ground. How twisted would you think I am if I told you it worked, and that after they were cooked, I fed them to the chickens?
Chicken-fun aside, there just wasn’t much to do. There was a new kind of silence out there in the country. Miles up the road I could just barely make out the farmhouse of their nearest neighbor. It looked smaller than my fort at home from that distance. I was an extreme extrovert from a large, noisy family, growing up in a suburban neighborhood chock full of kids, and suddenly I was very alone. As I gazed off into the endless horizon that hot summer day, I experienced the first pangs of homesickness in my life.
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Saturday, August 25, 2012
nothing is ever actually destroyed
they leave, they leave
and they take me with them
for i am pieces of my heart
given over to them
forever more;
someday there may be nothing left of me
but i’ll be out there
wherever they are,
in pieces
Sunday, August 19, 2012
counting the cost
it was the landscape that first sold me on the place. there wasn’t a dandelion or weed anywhere to be found. the turf was thick, lush green. a nice variety of flowering plants, shrubs and bushes added beauty and serenity to the place, and i am a sucker for beauty and serenity.
we moved in and it was like somehow inheriting a perfect body...all i had to do was maintain it. the hard part--getting it to that idyllic state in the first place--was already done. and maintenance would be easy, right?! we had sunlight aplenty, so really, if i just added water, the occasional fertilizer, and kept things trimmed, it’d always be beautiful.
we ran the sprinklers liberally. the lawn stayed lush, thick and green through those hot summer months. things were going along fine.
then the first water bill arrived.
we had moved from the verdant climes of new england to the desert. water in our previous place ran about three dollars a month, and that was for a full half-acre of grass. it never occurred to me how much our new postage-stamp sized property in the desert would cost to keep green.
after two months of pouring purified drinking water on it, i realized we couldn’t afford to maintain it like it had been. we simply didn’t have the same resources to give it that another owner might. neighboring yards benefitted from the help of yard service companies to regularly mow, weed, trim and water plants. sadly, for our little yard, those days were over.
it didn’t fall apart all at once, but over the years, that perfectly maintained landscape has disappeared. in spring and fall, the turf looks somewhat reasonable if you don’t look too closely. but as the temperature rises, as the sun relentlessly beats down on it, the tender grass withers and dies. hearty weeds move in, and ironically they are the reason there is any green at all now.
i thought i’d be able to keep it nice. not once when i bought the place did it occur to me that this weed-free, lush, welcoming landscape would ever turn scraggly, wither and die. that it would ever be a place i stopped enjoying. that it would ever weigh me down instead of filling me with delight. i thought i had the strength to do the work, the resources to supply it with whatever it needed.
it is not completely hopeless, of course. the foundation is still there, underneath the mess. if i made it a high priority, i could spend the hours upon hours that it would take to trim back, dig up, and root out all the undesirable elements. and once that was done, i could find a way to acquire the money and dedicate the time necessary to purchase and plant new, appealing additions. perhaps others would be willing to put in some effort as well, restoring what once was. but even if it was just me working on it, i could devote myself to creating anew, a place of beauty and serenity that would be welcoming and appreciated, enjoyed by all. or at least by me...even if no one else takes pleasure in it.
i haven’t given up hope yet. but it’s hard. without knowing what the future holds, deciding what to do - where to apply my energy and effort - is a difficult choice. no thing of beauty created is ever a wasted effort, but there are so many different options, so many unknowns, i haven't figured out which direction to go.
Sunday, July 22, 2012
Thursday, June 21, 2012
If I received a nickel for everytime I saw someone as beautiful as you, I'd have five cents.
Have you ever googled pick-up lines? Neither had I...until today. And man, there are some really BAD ones out there!
So why am I googling pick up lines? Well, Doc and I decided to go on a fun date this weekend, pretending we've never met before. We'll just happen to cross paths at a place downtown, where he'll see me, be smitten, and decide to pick up on me...a complete stranger.
The rule is we can't break character, or let on that we know anything about the other person at all. We can invent whatever histories we want for ourselves, mixing fact and fiction any way we like.
It's going to be so much fun!
So since this is new territory for me...I mean, really, 25 years ago when we started dating it was much simpler and I never experienced anything like this...I decided I'd better put some thought into my character for the night. For example, what is my name? What is my life like? (have I ever been married? Do I have kids? Where do I work? Have I lived here long?) What are my hobbies, interests? And also, how does the whole pickup-scene work, anyway? I've never thought much about it. Anyone have any tips for me?
The prospect of having a one-night-stand with my husband is so exciting I can hardly stand it!
Now to figure out how to look smokin' hot.
So why am I googling pick up lines? Well, Doc and I decided to go on a fun date this weekend, pretending we've never met before. We'll just happen to cross paths at a place downtown, where he'll see me, be smitten, and decide to pick up on me...a complete stranger.
The rule is we can't break character, or let on that we know anything about the other person at all. We can invent whatever histories we want for ourselves, mixing fact and fiction any way we like.
It's going to be so much fun!
So since this is new territory for me...I mean, really, 25 years ago when we started dating it was much simpler and I never experienced anything like this...I decided I'd better put some thought into my character for the night. For example, what is my name? What is my life like? (have I ever been married? Do I have kids? Where do I work? Have I lived here long?) What are my hobbies, interests? And also, how does the whole pickup-scene work, anyway? I've never thought much about it. Anyone have any tips for me?
The prospect of having a one-night-stand with my husband is so exciting I can hardly stand it!
Now to figure out how to look smokin' hot.
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Letting Go
she could have just told me
"you're wearing me down
with your nonstop struggling
to find and feel joy".
she could have
but she didn't.
and i am a slow learner
especially when it comes to my strong attachments
to the people who matter the most.
i don't know if i would have
ever moved on
without the grace she finally extended
to snuff out my miserable wondering.
"that's it?!" i thought.
relieved. oddly.
surprised by the peace finally knowing bestowed.
i would have predicted a feeling of loss
but i guess i'd already grieved what once was
a beautiful friendship
that blessed my life
and hers...
(let's be fair.)
but she gets to move on.
and blessedly
so do i.
at last.
Friday, May 4, 2012
7923
Fun little tidbit:
I was single for the first 7923 days of my life, and today marks 7923 days of marriage to Doc. Exactly HALF MY LIFE!
Doc hit this same milestone on Tuesday, November 29, 2011. (Yes, he's younger than me.) (#Cougar)
Here's to another 7923! (puts us at Thursday, January 12, 2034)
Sunday, March 18, 2012
One of those stories...
Friday night, I went to the opening of an art exhibit that my friend Leslie had a piece in. I was making my way slowly through the masses of people attending, when I ran into a former acquaintance (I'll call her Ally), whom I hadn't seen in a number of years. While we were chatting, a friend of hers approached, and for some reason this person looked familiar to me (though, as it turns out, I'd never seen her before).
I asked Ally "who is that?", and when she told me her friend's name, (I'll call her Christine X), I asked "is she Steve X's sister?" Christine heard my question, and said "no, I'm Steve's wife. Who are you?"
Realizing I knew Steve, Ally introduced us to each other, and this is when I got embarrassed. Because I didn't know how they might respond to the truth. So I told them "I don't think I should answer that question", which of course made them even hungrier to know.
They pressed, I quickly caved. "Well, as it turns out, Steve was the first guy I ever kissed"... the admission of which fact seemed to fill them both with crazy juicy delight.
Encouraged, I further explained, "I was fourteen. We met at a church dance in Newport Beach. He was cute and I was enchanted. Outside after the dance, he took me behind that mosaic wall, and then he kissed me."
Ally and Christine are both laughing now, clamoring for more details. And since there were details to be had, I did share them.
"I floated all the way home, convinced that this kiss of course meant that WE WERE GOING TO GET MARRIED someday. I mean, naturally, he was clearly THE ONE. So that night I wrote Steve a letter...with all the earnestness, heartfelt sincerity and oozing conviction of any newly lovestruck fourteen-year-old-fresh-out-of-junior-high girl. And I had every intention of giving it to him, too, but I put that letter behind a photograph of the temple hanging above my cot in the garage for safekeeping, and eventually forgot about it because I NEVER SAW HIM AGAIN."
Ally and Christine are both hooting with laughter at this point. And then, who should walk up but my once-upon-a-time-intended. Christine and Ally couldn't pounce upon him fast enough.
"Steve, do you recognize this person?"
And then, in what was for me the weirdest moment of all, Steve looked at me for only a few seconds and then replied "Sure I do. You're Blue. Blue Jeuls." (substitute my maiden name).
Shut the front door!
I thought someone must have told him before he walked up...or that he'd overheard our conversation. But he hadn't. He just remembered me, even though we only met once, TWENTY NINE YEARS AGO!
We chatted for a few minutes about that day and our lives since then. He and Christine are darling people, and it was fun to meet her. He told me that three days after that dance he left for college, which is why I never saw him again. I honestly didn't expect him to remember me, out of all the girls I presumed him to have met/kissed.
He of course stood out for me because he was my first, and, well, because of THE LETTER--which, I should note, I didn't rediscover until I was packing up all my stuff to move out of the garage when I got married, seven years later. I pulled that photo of the temple off the wall and this mysterious envelope fluttered to the floor. After reading it, can I just say you have NOOOOOO idea how glad I was that I hadn't had the opportunity to completely mortify myself by actually delivering it to him!
In the end, I guess the only thing I can conclude from this experience is, dang, I must be a REALLY good kisser!*
How about you? Tell me your first kiss stories!!!
*or an amazingly terrible one.
I asked Ally "who is that?", and when she told me her friend's name, (I'll call her Christine X), I asked "is she Steve X's sister?" Christine heard my question, and said "no, I'm Steve's wife. Who are you?"
Realizing I knew Steve, Ally introduced us to each other, and this is when I got embarrassed. Because I didn't know how they might respond to the truth. So I told them "I don't think I should answer that question", which of course made them even hungrier to know.
They pressed, I quickly caved. "Well, as it turns out, Steve was the first guy I ever kissed"... the admission of which fact seemed to fill them both with crazy juicy delight.
Encouraged, I further explained, "I was fourteen. We met at a church dance in Newport Beach. He was cute and I was enchanted. Outside after the dance, he took me behind that mosaic wall, and then he kissed me."
Ally and Christine are both laughing now, clamoring for more details. And since there were details to be had, I did share them.
"I floated all the way home, convinced that this kiss of course meant that WE WERE GOING TO GET MARRIED someday. I mean, naturally, he was clearly THE ONE. So that night I wrote Steve a letter...with all the earnestness, heartfelt sincerity and oozing conviction of any newly lovestruck fourteen-year-old-fresh-out-of-junior-high girl. And I had every intention of giving it to him, too, but I put that letter behind a photograph of the temple hanging above my cot in the garage for safekeeping, and eventually forgot about it because I NEVER SAW HIM AGAIN."
Ally and Christine are both hooting with laughter at this point. And then, who should walk up but my once-upon-a-time-intended. Christine and Ally couldn't pounce upon him fast enough.
"Steve, do you recognize this person?"
And then, in what was for me the weirdest moment of all, Steve looked at me for only a few seconds and then replied "Sure I do. You're Blue. Blue Jeuls." (substitute my maiden name).
Shut the front door!
I thought someone must have told him before he walked up...or that he'd overheard our conversation. But he hadn't. He just remembered me, even though we only met once, TWENTY NINE YEARS AGO!
We chatted for a few minutes about that day and our lives since then. He and Christine are darling people, and it was fun to meet her. He told me that three days after that dance he left for college, which is why I never saw him again. I honestly didn't expect him to remember me, out of all the girls I presumed him to have met/kissed.
He of course stood out for me because he was my first, and, well, because of THE LETTER--which, I should note, I didn't rediscover until I was packing up all my stuff to move out of the garage when I got married, seven years later. I pulled that photo of the temple off the wall and this mysterious envelope fluttered to the floor. After reading it, can I just say you have NOOOOOO idea how glad I was that I hadn't had the opportunity to completely mortify myself by actually delivering it to him!
In the end, I guess the only thing I can conclude from this experience is, dang, I must be a REALLY good kisser!*
How about you? Tell me your first kiss stories!!!
*or an amazingly terrible one.
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